Every year as school starting time rolls around and we head into fall melancholy and depression tends to roll in right along with it. And i know it's my subconscious remembering the stress, heartache, pain of those fall/winter months that hit us 6 years ago, and then 14 months later our son Devin's passing. Well, this year we found ourselves stressed for another reason, we were selling our home and property, the one where we lived for 8 years the one we raised 3 little darlings in, where we laughed, made precious memories, where we held Devin's hand as he lay dying on the couch and whispered it's okay to let the angels carry you to Jesus, the one we watched helplessly as it went up in flames, then we rebuilt, picked up the pieces of our lives, started over, made new memories and lived for the last2.5 years. Along with selling our home we are building a new one. The last week or so the stress level has been at an all time high, the settlement date got pushed off a time or two therefore holding up getting started on the new house then what we thot was an ideal situation of staying here and renting back till ours was done got messed up a few times until the Lord dropped a rental at very reasonable price and immediate availabilty into our hands and we decided that we would pack up and get out asap, which gave us two weeks to pack and relocate. And so this where we find ourselves to date, the new house being started, packing up the one were currently at in a handful of days and in the middle of that school starting, my mind, emotions, body was on serious overload, but over the weekend as i struggled with living in this whirlwind i found myself being handed a heavenly peace and calm. A dear friend from church called and said she was taking care of getting people from our church to bring in suppers so i could continue packing through the day and also get my kitchen packed. 6 other friends called and scheduled a day to come help pack.....talk about Earthly Angles, gifts straight from the Father!! I found myself pondering the whole situation and I had to smile, hugely.....cause i know one of my best friends had no idea that today, the day she scheduled to come help is the 6th anniversary of Devin's diagnosis. And i thought you know as stressed out as i was about this mountain in front of me that seemed unmovable, my God knew all this, and i know He caused these things to be planned out just like it is, i would be engulphed in love and care from friends over a time that is extremely painful and most times sends me to my bed to curl up in sleep and bide the time away until the time is past, but this year He said what looks like a mountain you can't climb, you will be carried around with love by Me and the loved ones I've put in your life! Wow!! what a blessing!! It's so comforting to know My God has my heart, He sees and cares desperatly for every ache, for every need, every step in my life! It's daunting at times to even attempt to fully understand His great love me, His daughter, the girl He'll pursue and care for and never walk away from for life!! Thankyou Father for your everpresent love and mercy to your daughter that takes it for granted way to often!!
